The mere essence of God’s Grace has had an enlightening impact on my life. Firstly by his continuous presence in my daily life, although much of it is unseen until later… I am constantly learning through his teachings and life experiences. Secondly I am ever so empowered by simply his continuous love, yet so many times it makes things complicated in my mind. I will never fully understand the power of his love, and this allows me to continuously seek God. It amazes me how God allows himself to be revealed to me, though many of the time he can spiritually smack me across the head with many things at once. This sometimes makes things complicated to me because I take a while to process each thing and put my learning’s into my life to (as it seems) ‘betterfy myself’ – to make myself into something more worthy and honouring to God. But as I write these words I think of the overused worship song ‘Come now is the time to worship’ but in particular the line ‘come, just as you are to worship.’ It occurs to me that in God’s mind he doesn’t care what kind of person we are he just wants us to ‘draw near to him’ (one of my favourite verses).
In life I forget he sees us all the same, we are of same worth in his eyes. It is hard for me to describe what my mind interprets when I think of this, but it is something like he sees us as spiritual beings rather than human beings. I know I’m not explaining myself very well there, but imagine us being a transparent human form tube with all our characteristics written inside. That is almost how I imagine God seeing use. He doesn’t look to how good looking we are, or how big our muscles or boobs are, how skinny we are etc. to him he just see’s us for who we truly are. To him all that stuff doesn’t matter. It makes me think how significant, yet how insignificant I am. To the world I’m so insignificant I’m just another person who makes up the human population, but to God I’m his precious daughter and he made the right qualities to make me just as he wanted me to be. He made me Rebekah Laurene Hugo, a precious gift of his, not some form of junk.
It occurs to me that many things I do are pointless.. take msn and myspace for example. I spend much time on there… and what does it achieve? Nothing! What could I be doing instead, chilling with my one and only true and consistent God!...and possibly a bit more homework. But I think I really need to get my priorities right. I think I might do a fast for a week from myspace, msn, gush and even here. I will pray about it and see where God leads me.